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Losing Jason

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UPDATE 7/6/2007

The entire story has been posted and taken down. This journal exists now for current friends only and will be updated with stuff related to my getting this book published in print. It will also preview my new story. No new friends accepted. Sorry.

About this Live Journal

This Live Journal WAS here to publish a book written by mothball_71 (that's me). I've shopped the book around to a few agents and have generated some interest. The problem is the story sits in between two "genres" and in order to get my paper book publisher to print it it needs to be adjusted up or down to fit into one of the genres. Doing that would ruin the story so I'm just going to publish it here. I'll upload a few pages every weekday (don't get irate if I miss a day here and there). Please comment. The work published here is considered a draft for comments and I have all intent to eventually find a publisher with the guts to publish it as is.

I'm new to the whole game of publishing and only sent queries to agents that I could find on the internet. I'm learning now that what I've heard from those agents is mostly BS. When I'm done posting here, I'll give it another try with a broader selection of agents. I've decided to cap my readership at 40 people because of my renewed interest to publish on paper. Also, a week or so after the last post this journal will come down entirely.

I guess I should warn any potential reader that some of the content is definately NC-17/X rated. I'm assuming that anyone who reads it is mature enough for such a thing and is of the legal age in their given country.

After Chapter 1 this journal will be friends only.

The Story

Jason and Garrett were best friends since before they could crawl. Born a few months apart to sets of parents, themselves best friends, their bond was unusually strong. Right before Jason's sixteenth birthday he was diagnosed with an inoperable cancer that wouldn't respond well to chemotherapy. Jason is given only a few months to live and he takes that time to live his entire life to the fullest, without fear, without trepidation but with a clock. Without Jason, Garrett’s world would fall apart and it does fall apart once he learns of Jason's illness. For years Jason held a secret love for Garrett and after learning of his death sentence, finally expresses that love to Garrett. Garrett also had feelings for Jason but buried them so deep he didn't realize they were there until Jason pulls them up to the surface all at once.

Though they lament that they kept their shared secret hidden for so long, Garrett and Jason make the best of the short time they have left together as friends and lovers. Garrett begins to realize that he would soon have to face the world without Jason and at the same time face the world as a homosexual. Its Jason's wish to tell his family and friends about his feelings but he promised he would wait until Garrett was ready. Garrett struggles with coming out of the closet and, as opportunities come and go, Garrett lets each pass. Jason meanwhile with a clock ticking in his head grows impatient. As Jason's illness sets in Garrett avoids coming to terms with not only the closet but Jason's illness and he does all he can to hide from all if it. Garrett avoids the inevitable pain, real and imagined all while alienating everyone around him, most of all Jason.